I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound.

You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say,

That it's too late to apologize
It's too late
I said it's too late to apologize
It's too late.

am tired. today's swimming carnival sucked! it was so boring. we sat there and talk only. it was bloody warm. really sucked lah.

problems? how to solve? my mind is stucked. i really need to find a solution now. hope it wasnt too late. never too late! hais. someone pls advice me.

he called again today. shocked! dint expected it. i told him everything lah. he listened. but also no idea what i should do. chat for around 2 hours. very tired lor. then went to slp. am so troubled. pls help me. i tried to talk to regene. but halfway she need to go le. sian. sylvia leh. she not free. tricia.. hais. she's so busy with ben's party. got ask other ppl lah. but really ar, cant make it. but i feel better telling them. =)

some pictures to share!


LUCIFY! kuek is soooo cute can. misaki is NIANG! haha. {taken from rock with lucify @ yg}


MISAKI and KUEK! haha. broke back mountain. {picture taken from rock with lucify @ yg}


SOUL with Brods. Andy is soooooo cute! {taken from capture your soul @ yg}


kan zhe ta de shen ti fa dou pic of ANDY. its taken at sentosa event. poor regene kenna pushed and become like this. but still as shuai!!! {credits to regene! }

tired and sad!

sch started. it was boring. stress! starting to feel the stress.
and old problems haven settle, now got new ones.
history repeated itself on another person. [how sad!]
i think everyone will face the same problem. after you apologise, you will still feel the gap between/among him/her/them. its awkward lah. this is what am experiencing. everyone will feel shy to talk even after you have apologised {and of course, the other party must accept} because everything seems so far away after the quarrel.

i admit that i dont know how to handle problems. and doesnt know how to confide. i feel rather weird. but i also cant keep everything in my heart right. i believe everyone have their weaknesses.
and for me, i cant handle friendship problems {i dont know why. am a weirdo} end of this topic. =)

suddenly, i feel so lonely. so empty. got no mood. hais. dont know whats happening to me. maybe i shall find someone to talk to.

hais. am so worried for her. she kenna it again. send to police. you take care lah! dont always pon sch. haha.

he called me that day to apologised for not turning up. i was pretty shocked. dint know he will call.. me and him talked for almost an hour. i was outside then. he called lizhen and we conferenced. he also apologised to lizhen lor. he was sincere. not fake anymore. he told us many things lah. then we just listened. i almost cried. then he say he need to go do work le. then we hang up. he sounded so troubled. maybe tired too. hais. take care!

~all you have said were a pack of lies.

nings is sad!

long waited class bbq! enjoyed tonight. almost the whole class turned up.

meet up with yici and delun first to get the money.. then i went to city satay with my sis. went parkway ntuc to meet siew wen, foong ping, ellialyn, selina, min cai, tim hong and claudia. went ntuc to buy all the edible stuffs. spent around $35 dollars. then we decided that a few ppl should take cab to bring all the stuffs to the pit first. but after that, all paiseh.. so we walked there instead. its was damn far away can. reached the pit and saw evon and wally already reached le. while yici and delun was setting up the fire. it was only 5 plus and we already started bbq-ing. it was damn early lah. by 7pm we were already full le. miss lee arrived.. then me, wally and ping went to the bench near the beach to chat. sat under the coconut tree. LOLS

continued eating. then gossiped. celebrated miss lee's belated birthday. ate the cake. nice nice. then we continued to chat. new sch term got new teachers and trainee teachers. haha. someone quitted too. oh.. how sad!! dont have to see her face liaos. haha.
soon. most ppl leave. left me, rafi, wally, sam, jiawen, ellialyn, selina, yici and miss lee. miss lee went home and the rest of us walked to macdonalds. got alot of ppl watching soccer. we cheered when Italy got red card. lame! saw rafi's sis who is damn chio!!! haha. so ang moh. haha. then my sis come fetch me. save my bus fare! haha. tired!

went marina and bugis today. was supposed to meet at 1pm de. i THOUGHT i was late. chiong-ed out of the house. thinking i will be the last. reached bugis mrt station. called kaien. she said she still at home. feel like throwing my phone on the floor. reached city hall. called amanda. fuck her. nv pick up. missed call her many times. i bo bian walked to raffles city. shopped around. there, not my type. too expensive liaos. amanda smsed me. say she also just leave the house. wtf. think very funny huh. she changed the meeting time and she still late. told her to meet me at funan instead. i walked half way through city link. then i turned back and walked to funan. everyone looked at me like siao like that. walked half way to funan. kaien smsed me say she nv bring the coupon to redeem the drink. f! i very pek cek le. damn ap. decided to walk to marina instead. called both of them but none pick up. fine lor! wth. bring hp dont want to pick up. went marina to shop. and waste time. walked like so many times. kaien called and say they all at city link. asked them walk over. i waited for like one hour twenty minutes. wasted my time.

when they reached le, we dint even shop then jiu go food court and makan. i eat ban mian AGAIN! is pork very cheap now? the you mian i ordered consisted of large chunks of meat! i feel like vomitting. finished eating and we decided to go bugis. took mrt and went bugis. went to take neoprints. then saw adeline, rowena, amanda liu and martha. HAIG GIRLS REUNION sia. amanda liu suggested to go for reunion dinner. but we ate le. we chatted a while then we parted to take neoprints. spent around 2 hours there. then rushed to bugis street. amanda need to buy earrings. i wanted to look for my stuffs. but none was suitable. after that jiu went home.


nings is sad. abit pek cek!

sighs. more than one week never blog liaos. reason being; am lazy and got no time. gonna summarise what i did these few days.

11 june- saturday
meet li zhen at 12.30pm at bugis. both of us was punctual. went to develop photos. shopped around. we meet him at 1pm. went to mos burger to wait for him. we bian chi bian deng. after we finished our food is around 2pm le. he always late de. so we nv call him to hurry him. until 2.30pm, he sms-ed me say he need to report. wth. me and zhen damn angry lah. he promised to meet us de. in the end he need to go back. i nv reply him. went collected our photos and went bugis street. i was looking for the "crown" designed necklace while li zhen was looking for hello kitty stuffs. we walked around most of the shops to check the price, design and quality. we were indecisive because they were so many designs. finally we decided to buy at the one shop. haha. it was still early and we went to funan mall. we bought aqmfs merchandise. then we went marina square. walked a while then went home le. was damn angry with him. broke the promise again and again.

14 june- wednesday
finally my sis finished her exams. went to watch "cars" at bishan. very nice movie. walked around. looking for shoes and wallet. probably a shirt. coz my mom spoilt my shirt. she accidentally dyed it. hais. nothing much at bishan. then we went home after eating. =)

15 june- thursday
went to this wuloo place with mom and sis. it was so wuloo that we took the wrong bus back home. so we alighted at peninsular plaza. saw this very nice converse shoe. but out of stock le. sad. sad. sad.


Nings is deng dai-ing..

hais. today and yesterday i did nothing. was stoning at home. this morning 10.30am woke up. found out that my hp off liaos. coz low batt. 11 plus then on. feel like slapping myself coz kaien sms-ed me at 10.15am ask me go kbox. sian. 11 plus le go le only sing for 2 hours. waste money only. so replied her and rejected her. only if i on it earlier. i can go out one leh. =(

intended to bake cookies today. but nobody wanna help me. sis is studying for exams {waiting for her to finish exams so i can go shopping with her.!!} then my mom dont care me one. i lazy to wash up also. in the end i nv bake. =X

my aunties came. the kids gave me headaches lah. nv entertain them. i read my book. =) i very guai one! after that ate lunch which is fried kuay tiao. tevin played the comp and told me his dad maple level 114 liaos. i was like wth. pro sia. my cousin so pro at computer games. no wonder his kids also so crazy over online games. at 2 plus they went home liaos. now chatting with friends. diao. boring.

thanks goodness! finally!!!!!! tml i can go out le. but going bugis again lah! i bet will have alot of people de. but better than staying at home. facing four walls. =)) meeting li zhen jie tml. developing photos and shopping. window shopping bah. because i only spend money on clothes etc. when i go out with my mom. =) because she will pay for me. cant wait for tml to come!!!!!!!!

yesterday just found out that mmp online. i think is wednesday night bah. when i playing gb. coz i saw that his nick changed. wth. miss the chance of talking to him again. long time nv chat liaos. need to ask him alots of questions. hope to see him soon.

nings loves lucify and soul..

am so pissed off now. if i dont blog it out, i will die.. =(
got so many things to say.
am utterly upset, angry, disappointed..
i noticed that i got pissed off easily by childish ppl now.
k lah. am childish. but got ppl even childish-er. cant stand them, ap-ed some ppl the whole day.
another case. ppl tend to follow each other. this sucks lah. for eg. one person dont go, the rest dont go. what kind of rubbish is this man. you might use on other occasions. but pls use it on the right time can. spoiler!!!!!!!!!!! fuck off.
outcast pls get lost. dont try to act smart lah. act smart when you dont know anything. cb!


last point.
i always try to go along with what you all want. ask me go here, i go with you all. want to eat this, i eat. i nv comment much. because i anything also can de. but as time goes by, you all step on my head. wth. i really cant stand it lah. when will i ever get a chance to choose and decide?

am a lousy blogger. because i dont know what to blog now. sighs..

yesterday went to tampines mall. we sat at the bus stop for around 1 hr to decide where to go. so many buses passed by us and we couldnt think of a place to go. singapore is SMALL. finally we decided to go TM. then someone insisted to eat SG. i think is sian dao~. but still we went. because somebody play truant mah. so big liao still act like a child. LOLs. whatever. on the bus we keep ji-siao-ing each other. hahaha. was funny lah. and i think somebody lied abt his feelings towards her. =) shhhh. big secret. went to SG. and 2 adult males were sitting beside our table. they kept on looking at what we put into our pot and the hot plate. f them lah. make me so uncomfortable. (cheenas!) fianlly they left. i can eat with peace. then we noticed 2 tables away from us got 3 girls. they ate like there's no tomorrow. we kept on laughing at them. LOLS. after eating. we went to walk around TM. went to out fav place. toys'R'us. haha. we played with the flapping-ears- eeyore. it was damn cute lah. it was the one we played in OG. same one. but got another design de. we kept on laughing when the eeyore flapped its ears. it was damn cute lah. will take a pic of it next time. after that we went home. coz everyone was tired. went home and checked youtube got update AQMFS ep17. finally have leh. omg. i have to wait for one week for the updates. i watched ep17 and started crying in front of the comp. sounds so ridiculous. but its true. it was so touching. the story between XB, EQ and YS. hais. i think going to finish liaos. sians. the ending will still be same. but i dont wanna see EQ with KL lor. KL so xia lan one. =X


o6-o6-o6! today. after physics practical. i went home. it was around 12pm. then when i reached home thinking that i can have an enjoyable lunch cooked by my mom but sadly they left me with nothing. i was damn pek cek lah. coz last night nv eat dinner. this morning nv eat breakfast. and lunch. no food for me too. wth. i scolded everyone lah. everyday ask me go home eat. i went home this time and no food for me. f! i slammed the door and went to slp. i was upset lah. and no one even bothered to cook something for me or go da bao. nvm lah. shall ap my mom and my sis until i forget abt this matter. hais.


love me again,
Nings

sian. today saturday i got nothing to do. the weather is so damn hot until i cant bear to leave the house. =) slack the whole day at home. watched tv and slp. pig! now using the comp. talking to ping. we chao you mo qi. the first sentence that we start to chat was "today nv go out ar?" haha. damn qiao can. intended to go out today one, but yesterday cant think of anyone to go out with. so we postpone the trip. shall carefully plan the outing. LOLs.

class bbq on 16 june. my group is in charge of FOOD! ya! food. so when everyone gets nothing to eat, the whole class will blame us! was thinking of bbq-ing seafood. but our budget quite tight. will think of sth. as usual ellialyn is in charge of chicken wings AGAIN!! LOLS. its also a surprise party for someone. LOLS.

am waiting patiently for aqmfs ep17. hopefully tml ppl will upload it bah. omg!!! its the nicest drama. RICHIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~

sian. nothing to blog abt le. bye!

today had my f&n practical. it rocked but all of us was damn tired. and it was fun. i enjoy cooking!! haha. Thanks dad and mrs chen for helping me.. my dad did helped me alot.=) helped me buy all the ingredients and cleaned them. his the best dad ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love daddy!! mrs chen helped me and the others alot. although she's damn naggy. spoil ppl's mood. =x haha. i was quite fast at the beginning. then suddenly ping told me she finishing le. then i began to panick. lucky managed to finish cooking all the dishes!! my time managment suck lah. and something cropped up. i dint expect my stingray to take such a long time to cook. it took around 45 mins. but at home i tried it only took about 20 minutes. the others was ok lah. my fish head was so big until no plates/bowls could fit into it. then mrs chen helped me found the biggest one. freak me out k. i thought the sch so cheapo, dont have so big one. lucky have. if not i could have died.

here's the outcome of my practical.


sweet and sour prawns. yummy. but i think it looks pretty weird with the "victory" pinapple surrounding it. haha.


baked crabs. it looks so damn cute with the parsley. mrs chen helped me put one. damn cute can. the whipped egg on top almost got chao dar. lucky i checked if not it will turned out black. haha. not like this golden brown liaos. am so impressed with it. =))))


barbequed stingray! took me so long to finished it. although the shortest time to prepare. looks nice though. the sambal my dad helped me prepare de. and its damn delicious k!


fish head curry. the picture above doesnt look like any fish head lah. because it has been covered with so many vegetables. =) LOLs. the hardest dish ever. look carefully and you will see the eye of the fish.


all the four dishes! nice hor? BHB!

sian. now have to do my evaluation. i nv really tasted the dishes yet lor. but nvm lah.. anyhow make up stories. am very impressed with myself. this is the first time my practical turned out so well. =) happy happy!! and mrs chen actually da bao-ed my stingray, fish head curry and one of the baked crabs home. i told her i dont have such a big container to keep the fish. then she say she will bring home. so i gave her all my dish except the prawns. HAHA!!

Ning-S
- 1st March 1990;


{LOVES}
<3 MAYDAY;
<3 5566;
<3 Zax;
<3 Sleeping;
<3 Eating;
<3 Watching Tv;
<3 Taking neoprints;
<3 Talking on The phone;


{HATES}
Backstabbers;
Liars;
Late-comers;
Fakes;